Lately I’ve really been trying to better myself and just feel much more comfortable with the person that I am. I think that sometimes people focus too hard on trying to be perfectly happy, and while that would definitely be amazing, I personally don’t always see that as being able to be a reality. Sometimes this makes me feel like maybe I’m a bit pessimistic, but I think I’m just trying to be realistic and to aspire to getting to a place in my life where I won’t always be hoping for more than I have.
This is a really personal thing for me to be writing about on here, where I know that people that I don’t know, and even people who do know me will all be able to read it. I’ve always wanted for this blog to be a space where I can share absolutely anything I want, instead of trying to only show parts of myself that I think other people would want to see.
For a while I think I did try and sort of focus on only fashion on here for a period of time, and while I’m definitely still going to write about and incorporate fashion and clothing on here, that wouldn’t be a genuine and full representation of who I am.
Anyway, I’ve already rambled A LOT but I haven’t even really started to talk about what I was planning to in this post. My whole life I’ve really struggled with feeling comfortable in my own skin, and over the last year I think I’m finally starting to learn to accept myself more than ever. It has taken me years to get to the place and better mindset that I’m in right now. A major part of it might just be growing up, but there’s things I do that make me feel more confident too.
It’s probably a very superficial thing, but something that has made me feel so much more confident over the past year is having eyelash extensions. I always, without a doubt, used to wear a full face of makeup wherever I was going. It didn’t matter if I was literally going to the supermarket with my mum, or to work, I would put it all on. For the last couple of weeks the only makeup I’ve worn to work is some brow gel and mascara on my bottom lashes. For me this is just insane, and I think it all really started when I got my lashes done. I just feel like I don’t need to wear makeup as often, and I wear it now if I want to, not just because I don’t feel confident enough to leave the house without it.
When I started taking much better care of my skin this made me feel so much better about myself. My skin right now is definitely not perfect, but it’s the best that it’s been in a long time. I think it’s really down to me cutting back on all the products I use and focusing on using a good exfoliant and moisturiser. Also lots of lip balm, and of course drinking a lot of water.
In these photos I’m wearing hardly any makeup at all. I put some brow gel in, mascara for my bottom lashes, a little bit of eyeshadow, and a bit of highlighter on my cheekbones and nose. For me, that’s a big step. I usually would never have even taken photos of myself with this little makeup on, and now I’ve taken a whole bunch, and are posting them on the internet for whoever to see.
For years I tried to force myself to feel happy about the way I look, but now I feel like it’s much more important to just feel comfortable with who you are. It’s hard and it takes time, but I think I’m really starting to get there. I guess that’s the whole point of this post, sorry for rambling on so much.
Top: Mello Day / Jeans: Versace (Vintage) / Boots: Kmart / Bag: Love Stitch