what’s in my bag

One of my all time favourite kind of youtube videos to watch is a classic whats in my bag. I know reading a blog post about the same thing probably won’t have nearly the same effect, and I can’t ramble on about everything anywhere near as much as I would if I made youtube videos, but I wanted to share some of my favourite things that I pretty much always have on me.

I’m a small bag kinda girl, mostly because I know from experience if I have a big bag then I will just fill it because I have the room to. I don’t really like to keep a lot of things on me, so I just stick to my couple of essentials, and everything that I have in my bag as of right now I love for one reason or another and I pretty much just wanted an excuse to talk about them. Side note: I usually have my apple earphones in here as well and I’m not sure where they were on this day, but just pretend they’re there.

Firstly, the bag I’m using at the moment is from H&M. It’s pretty decent considering it only cost me $25, I’m a massive sucker for a mock croc effect, and I was looking for just a simple little black bag so this was perfect. But now, onto the contents and my cardholder. I’ve been progressively downsizing my wallet for a while now, for the same reason I use a small bag, when I use a big one I fill it with shit I absolutely don’t need. My cardholder is from Fendi, and it’s my love. Me and my boyfriend went almost halves (he paid more than me) in this for my 20th birthday present, and I can never see myself getting rid of it. It has 7 slots, it’s grey and yellow, it has the cute little Fendi monster eyes, and I’m just obsessed with it.

I’ve always got a few lip products in my bag, and at the moment I’m carrying one of my favourite lip balms, lanolips in the peach flavour, and of course probably my favourite lip gloss ever, from Fenty.

THE greatest hand cream and one that actually makes a difference to the softness of your hands, is the Hand Chemistry cream from the Chemistry Brand. I recommend this to everyone and anyone, and I’ve gone through a few tubes of it now.

I have two pairs of sunnies that I love the most, and at the moment these are the ones I’ve been carrying around the most recently and

Other than my keys, the last thing I have on me almost all the time (except when I’m getting one developed) is a disposable camera. If you’ve seen any of my disposable diaries on here you’ll know I take a lot of photos on these, and I just love having one on me.

disposable diary 3

I just got back another lot of film from a disposable, so I wanted to put it all together into a third disposable diary. I’ve realised that the majority of the film photos I post are pretty much the same things week to week, but my life is pretty uneventful unfortunately, so it probably won’t get too much better than this. I’ve also realised that I probably have a slight drinking problem, because a bunch of these were taken while me and my friends were out. Anyway, I hope you all enjoy another collection of drunk photos, sunsets and a few pics of me.

A little side note too, I’m very interested in buying a proper film camera but I’m completely unsure what is a good option for a basic point and shoot. If I did get one and start shooting on that, I’d have to change the name of this little series, but until then I’m sticking with the disposable cameras. If anyone knows a good film camera though that isn’t too pricey, please let me know!!

feeling comfortable

Lately I’ve really been trying to better myself and just feel much more comfortable with the person that I am. I think that sometimes people focus too hard on trying to be perfectly happy, and while that would definitely be amazing, I personally don’t always see that as being able to be a reality. Sometimes this makes me feel like maybe I’m a bit pessimistic, but I think I’m just trying to be realistic and to aspire to getting to a place in my life where I won’t always be hoping for more than I have.

This is a really personal thing for me to be writing about on here, where I know that people that I don’t know, and even people who do know me will all be able to read it. I’ve always wanted for this blog to be a space where I can share absolutely anything I want, instead of trying to only show parts of myself that I think other people would want to see.

For a while I think I did try and sort of focus on only fashion on here for a period of time, and while I’m definitely still going to write about and incorporate fashion and clothing on here, that wouldn’t be a genuine and full representation of who I am.

Anyway, I’ve already rambled A LOT but I haven’t even really started to talk about what I was planning to in this post. My whole life I’ve really struggled with feeling comfortable in my own skin, and over the last year I think I’m finally starting to learn to accept myself more than ever. It has taken me years to get to the place and better mindset that I’m in right now. A major part of it might just be growing up, but there’s things I do that make me feel more confident too.

It’s probably a very superficial thing, but something that has made me feel so much more confident over the past year is having eyelash extensions. I always, without a doubt, used to wear a full face of makeup wherever I was going. It didn’t matter if I was literally going to the supermarket with my mum, or to work, I would put it all on. For the last couple of weeks the only makeup I’ve worn to work is some brow gel and mascara on my bottom lashes. For me this is just insane, and I think it all really started when I got my lashes done. I just feel like I don’t need to wear makeup as often, and I wear it now if I want to, not just because I don’t feel confident enough to leave the house without it.

When I started taking much better care of my skin this made me feel so much better about myself. My skin right now is definitely not perfect, but it’s the best that it’s been in a long time. I think it’s really down to me cutting back on all the products I use and focusing on using a good exfoliant and moisturiser. Also lots of lip balm, and of course drinking a lot of water.

In these photos I’m wearing hardly any makeup at all. I put some brow gel in, mascara for my bottom lashes, a little bit of eyeshadow, and a bit of highlighter on my cheekbones and nose. For me, that’s a big step. I usually would never have even taken photos of myself with this little makeup on, and now I’ve taken a whole bunch, and are posting them on the internet for whoever to see.

For years I tried to force myself to feel happy about the way I look, but now I feel like it’s much more important to just feel comfortable with who you are. It’s hard and it takes time, but I think I’m really starting to get there. I guess that’s the whole point of this post, sorry for rambling on so much.

Top: Mello Day / Jeans: Versace (Vintage) / Boots: Kmart / Bag: Love Stitch

things that shouldn’t work

If you know me, you know that while I really do love fashion and pulling together pretty outfits, a lot of the time I just kind of throw things together and hope that I can pull it off. Sometimes I don’t even make much of an effort, I sort of just guess if something will look good and hope for the best. Occasionally I look back on these and I hate the outfit I’d put on, but other times I actually like my quickly put together looks.

The night I took these photos was one of those occasions where I actually like my outfit, even though it’s something that really shouldn’t work together at all. Everything I’m wearing I love on their own, and I can easily say that I would never usually think to put them together if I was properly planning an outfit.

My house has been getting renovated over the past few months, and lately I’ve been staying with my boyfriend, so obviously I don’t have my entire wardrobe full of options like I usually would. I’m definitely a lot more limited than I like to be with my clothing, meaning I sometimes just have to make do, because I’m not about to go all the way to my place just to grab a different jacket or whatever, just to go do nothing really important.

This jacket makes me feel like Georgie in It, at the start of the movie when he wears a yellow raincoat just like this one, then proceeds to get his arm bitten off by the clown in the drain. I found it at TK Maxx, but its by French Connection. I think it’s so cute, the fact that it’s a perfect yellow makes me feel so happy. It’s lined nicely which is a plus, the only other raincoat I own is really just a shell, so you have to wear layers underneath, but this you can get away with none.

The Levi’s top is vintage, and the pants I bought from Mango while I was in Ireland. A green top and a pair of brown cords is not something I would usually ever think to put with each other, let alone with a yellow jacket added into the mix. Even though this outfit doesn’t really work technically, to me it still kinda does.

Btw I know the quality of these photos is horrific but I just couldn’t get my camera to work so they were all just taken on my phone.

Top: Vintage Levi’s / Jacket: French Connection / Pants: Mango / Shoes: Doc Martens

disposable diary 1

Anyone who really knows me knows that I love disposable cameras, and that I almost always have one on me. I take a lot of photos and I wanted to do something with them, so I thought what better way than to share them on here. I can’t commit to any sort of time frame with these, like a week or month, so I’m thinking that just whenever I get a camera developed I’ll just make a little post to share some of the photos. I hope you guys like this, I’m trying to make my blog a little bit more personal and not just feeling like I’m writing for the sake of it, and in turn sharing things that don’t even really represent me as a person. This type of post is something that’s very me, so I hope you like a little snippet of my life on film.