disposable diary 2

My second disposable diary, and I really have loved doing these first two posts. I use disposable cameras like no tomorrow, and recently I finally discovered a place that develops film on site and can scan the prints onto a usb for me, which makes it so easy for me to share all my film photos in much better quality than I had been. I filled this camera pretty quickly, I think a massive part of that is attributed to knowing I was going to put together another one of these posts and being excited about it. Some of the photos from this camera I haven’t added however, because I really want to start incorporating film photos into the rest of my posts.

I honestly think these posts are the most genuinely ‘me’ out of everything I write and share on here. I know they’re very simple and short but I really do hope anyone taking the time to read them, likes them as much as I do.

things that shouldn’t work

If you know me, you know that while I really do love fashion and pulling together pretty outfits, a lot of the time I just kind of throw things together and hope that I can pull it off. Sometimes I don’t even make much of an effort, I sort of just guess if something will look good and hope for the best. Occasionally I look back on these and I hate the outfit I’d put on, but other times I actually like my quickly put together looks.

The night I took these photos was one of those occasions where I actually like my outfit, even though it’s something that really shouldn’t work together at all. Everything I’m wearing I love on their own, and I can easily say that I would never usually think to put them together if I was properly planning an outfit.

My house has been getting renovated over the past few months, and lately I’ve been staying with my boyfriend, so obviously I don’t have my entire wardrobe full of options like I usually would. I’m definitely a lot more limited than I like to be with my clothing, meaning I sometimes just have to make do, because I’m not about to go all the way to my place just to grab a different jacket or whatever, just to go do nothing really important.

This jacket makes me feel like Georgie in It, at the start of the movie when he wears a yellow raincoat just like this one, then proceeds to get his arm bitten off by the clown in the drain. I found it at TK Maxx, but its by French Connection. I think it’s so cute, the fact that it’s a perfect yellow makes me feel so happy. It’s lined nicely which is a plus, the only other raincoat I own is really just a shell, so you have to wear layers underneath, but this you can get away with none.

The Levi’s top is vintage, and the pants I bought from Mango while I was in Ireland. A green top and a pair of brown cords is not something I would usually ever think to put with each other, let alone with a yellow jacket added into the mix. Even though this outfit doesn’t really work technically, to me it still kinda does.

Btw I know the quality of these photos is horrific but I just couldn’t get my camera to work so they were all just taken on my phone.

Top: Vintage Levi’s / Jacket: French Connection / Pants: Mango / Shoes: Doc Martens

disposable diary 1

Anyone who really knows me knows that I love disposable cameras, and that I almost always have one on me. I take a lot of photos and I wanted to do something with them, so I thought what better way than to share them on here. I can’t commit to any sort of time frame with these, like a week or month, so I’m thinking that just whenever I get a camera developed I’ll just make a little post to share some of the photos. I hope you guys like this, I’m trying to make my blog a little bit more personal and not just feeling like I’m writing for the sake of it, and in turn sharing things that don’t even really represent me as a person. This type of post is something that’s very me, so I hope you like a little snippet of my life on film.

talking about my piercings

I’m the kind of person that’s super interested in piercings, I love hearing other people talk about theirs, and comparing my experiences of certain piercings with my own. I thought I’d write my own little post about my own piercings I’ve had done, and touch on the pain and healing process of each of them.

I have a total of 6 piercings; 3 in my ears, 2 in my nose, and 1 in my tongue webbing. At this point in time I don’t have my ear lobes pierced. I’ve had them pierced twice, both times they’ve ended up becoming infected and I’ve taken them out. The first time I got them done and then taken them out it wasn’t a big deal, but the second time they got really infected, and the back of my stud pretty much grew into my ear overnight. I had to get it cut out and get stitches in my ear lobe. So, after all this I’m feeling pretty scared to get them pierced again, but this did happen about 3 years ago so maybe after some more time I’ll end up getting them done again.

In my left ear I have my tragus done. This was my first cartilage piercing, and because I wasn’t 16 when I got this I had to get my mum to come with me and give parental permission. The first time I had my lobes done was about a year and a half before this and was done with a gun, so this was also the first piercing I’d had done with a needle. I was really nervous, but one of my friends who’d had their tragus done had told me it wasn’t painful at all, which eased my mind a bit. It did hurt though, it wasn’t awful, but it’s pretty close to the side of your head, so it feels really strange. It did get a little infected at first, which I was worried about at the time, but it fixed itself up pretty fast.

My right ear has two piercings, my rook and a little helix about half way up my ear. My helix I got not that long after my tragus, and the pain of this one felt so different to the pain of the thick cartilage of my tragus. Getting my helix done stung, a lot. It didn’t hurt a whole lot, but it really did sting, and that felt very weird to me. When I slept I had to sleep on the other side of my head because it really hurt to sleep on. It also would get stuck in my hair and pull sometimes, and it hurt a lot when it did this while being freshly pierced.

I would say my rook has been my most painful piercing. The cartilage that it pierces through isn’t as thick as the tragus, but it’s a lot harder and more stiff. I think I’ve gotten pretty good with the pain of piercings and tattoos, so they don’t bother me too much, but this one I remember more than any of my others because it hurt so much more. It was definitely worth it though, and the healing wasn’t too bad because it really never got in the way or caught in anything. If you really want this piercing then don’t let the pain put you off it.

Now onto my nose piercings, firstly the piercing in the right side of my nose. I got this one done about 3 years ago. I didn’t treat this piercing at all how I should’ve, and I changed the stud that I should’ve left in a lot longer than I did, after about 2-3 weeks. I changed the stud to a ring because that was always what I eventually wanted in my nose, but because I did it when my nose was not fully healed, it meant I got infected and it was pretty painful. The problems that I had with this piercing were all completely my fault, but it means that I’ve been a lot more careful with piercings I’ve had done since.

My septum is the most recent piercing I’ve had done. I’ve only had it for a bit over a month, and it hasn’t caused me too much trouble so far. It hurt a little to get it pierced, but I think because I was expecting it to be a lot worse, I was surprised that it wasn’t as bad as I thought. The worst part was cleaning it in the first couple of days. Every time I moved it around to clean it, it stung horribly, and a couple of times I almost cried. Now I have absolutely no problems with it, I can move it around and clean it and I can barely even feel it. I know that this is one of those piercings that a lot of people hate, but I really like it. Also, just a little side note, but the jewellery for this is silver unlike all of my other jewellery, which are all gold, only because where I went to get it pierced were all out of the gold horseshoes. When it’s all healed up though I will definitely be changing it so everything’s all matching.

Lastly, I have my tongue webbing pierced. This was easily the least painful piercing I’ve ever had done. Whenever I show it to people they think it must’ve been super painful, but in all honesty I could barely even feel it being done because the webbing is so thin. The most uncomfortable part of it was having to keep my tongue up in the same position for a minute or two while it was being pierced and then as the jewellery was being put in. All that I really felt was little bit of tugging when the jewellery was being put in. It’s a bit of a funny piercing to have done because it can’t really been seen unless I go out of my way to show people, but I still think it’s pretty cute. I have to apologise for how shit the photo is for this, but I literally could not get a photo better.

feeling stuck

I’ve been feeling pretty stuck lately on what to write. Majority of my posts lately have just been outfit based, but the latest one I did after I turned 20 got some really lovely feedback, so thank you to everyone who read that and told me their thoughts. Since the feedback was so positive, I’ve really felt like writing some more personal posts, however, I’ve just been unsure of what to talk about.

I think that how I’ve been feeling is a good place to start, and I can already tell this post is gonna be a rambly one. It’s not so much that I’ve been feeling uninspired, I just haven’t been feeling very creative as of late. I get inspired by a lot of things, but sometimes it’s hard for me to motivate myself into turning my thoughts into creative endeavours. I’ve written a post before on how I try to inspire myself, so I don’t want to make this post into a repeat of that one.

What I think I’ve been lacking more than anything is motivation. I really do love blogging, for me it’s not so much about how many people read what I’m writing or anything like that, and more just the fact that I sometimes feel like I have a lot of thoughts and I just want to write about whatever they might be. I feel like it’s a type of therapy for me, but I also don’t want to share anything that’s too personal, so I feel like I’m stuck in this limbo where I’m trying to find a balance between writing little posts on fashion and style, which will always be something that is very important to me, and writing about what I’m thinking.

I know that I prefer reading things which have been thought about and are coming from the heart, than just a quick little description of an outfit, but I’m still trying to find my feet here and I’m figuring out what this blog is.

When I took these photos I had no plan on what kind of post I would write to accompany them. The outfit is something I just chucked on at the last minute, nothing that I’m crazy about or anything that I think warrants an entire blog post on it, so that seemed so unauthentic for me to do. I just felt like after writing my last blog post which was pretty different for me, an outfit post about an outfit I don’t even particularly like just seemed so stupid.

I definitely don’t think that I’ve made this blog into what I want it to be, and I know that I can be a lot more creative and do a lot better, but I have a full time job and sometimes I lack the motivation and resources, as well as of course the time to do everything I want with it. This whole post I’m sure is just a complete mess and ongoing ramble, and I can’t even force myself to go back through it to proofread. I want my blog to me authentic and to be genuinely me, and that’s what I wrote this post to really say. I’m hoping that better things are coming for my little space of internet and if you guys stick around to see it then I hope you like it.