feeling stuck

I’ve been feeling pretty stuck lately on what to write. Majority of my posts lately have just been outfit based, but the latest one I did after I turned 20 got some really lovely feedback, so thank you to everyone who read that and told me their thoughts. Since the feedback was so positive, I’ve really felt like writing some more personal posts, however, I’ve just been unsure of what to talk about.

I think that how I’ve been feeling is a good place to start, and I can already tell this post is gonna be a rambly one. It’s not so much that I’ve been feeling uninspired, I just haven’t been feeling very creative as of late. I get inspired by a lot of things, but sometimes it’s hard for me to motivate myself into turning my thoughts into creative endeavours. I’ve written a post before on how I try to inspire myself, so I don’t want to make this post into a repeat of that one.

What I think I’ve been lacking more than anything is motivation. I really do love blogging, for me it’s not so much about how many people read what I’m writing or anything like that, and more just the fact that I sometimes feel like I have a lot of thoughts and I just want to write about whatever they might be. I feel like it’s a type of therapy for me, but I also don’t want to share anything that’s too personal, so I feel like I’m stuck in this limbo where I’m trying to find a balance between writing little posts on fashion and style, which will always be something that is very important to me, and writing about what I’m thinking.

I know that I prefer reading things which have been thought about and are coming from the heart, than just a quick little description of an outfit, but I’m still trying to find my feet here and I’m figuring out what this blog is.

When I took these photos I had no plan on what kind of post I would write to accompany them. The outfit is something I just chucked on at the last minute, nothing that I’m crazy about or anything that I think warrants an entire blog post on it, so that seemed so unauthentic for me to do. I just felt like after writing my last blog post which was pretty different for me, an outfit post about an outfit I don’t even particularly like just seemed so stupid.

I definitely don’t think that I’ve made this blog into what I want it to be, and I know that I can be a lot more creative and do a lot better, but I have a full time job and sometimes I lack the motivation and resources, as well as of course the time to do everything I want with it. This whole post I’m sure is just a complete mess and ongoing ramble, and I can’t even force myself to go back through it to proofread. I want my blog to me authentic and to be genuinely me, and that’s what I wrote this post to really say. I’m hoping that better things are coming for my little space of internet and if you guys stick around to see it then I hope you like it.

20 things I learned by 20

I was actually really upset about turning the big two zero, I cried the morning of my 20th birthday. I’m not 100% sure why it seemed to upset and scare me so much, but it did, and after dealing with my new age for the last 10 days I’ve decided to put together some of my thoughts and realisations from the past two decades of my life.

1. velvet is always a good idea

Anyone who really knows me, knows that I love wearing velvet more than almost anything, which links to my second point,

2. if you love wearing something, wear it 

It sounds so simple, but when I was younger it was hard sometimes for me to wear what I loved confidently, when they weren’t to everyone else’s taste.

3. disposable cameras are something I’ll always have on me

The most nostalgic way to capture moments, and the most special feeling when you get them developed, even if half the photos are complete shit.

4. let yourself feel every emotion you need to (it’s important)

5. but don’t hold onto negative emotions for too long

I always remember a quote from the five people you meet in heaven, “holding anger is a poison. it eats you from inside. we think that hating is a weapon that attacks the person who harmed us. but hatred is a curved blade. and the harm we do, we do to ourselves.”, which I read probably 5 or so years ago but has stuck with me through all this time.

6. indoor plants always make a space seem more homely

Get a little plant for your bedroom or wherever, and you’ll understand.

7. sometimes you have to force yourself to be creative

I seem to go through phases a lot where I feel completely uninspired, and sometimes to try and combat that, all I can do is to force it on myself a little. I used to draw a lot, and sadly I haven’t in much too long, but whenever I was feeling like I had no idea what to do to get myself feeling creative again, was to just make myself draw something, anything.

8. emerald jewellery will always be my thing

Emerald green and dark forest greens are my favourite shades of colour, so of course the jewellery that I love most has to contain emerald (or at least some other green stone), it just makes sense.

9. colour blocking outfits is a look and a half

Honestly, putting together an outfit made up of just one colour is one of my favourite things to do. Somehow it always seem to look so good, even when the pieces are super simple. Plus, this trend looks amazing dressed up or down so you can make it work however you want.

10. it’s okay not to know what you want to do with your life

All through school there seems to be this immense pressure to know what you want to do when you get out of, and now, going into my third year of being out of school I can say with confidence, that you have plenty of time to figure these things out, so don’t force yourself into making big decisions if you aren’t ready to.

11. don’t let people make you feel bad for spending money you earned on the things you want

I feel like it’s pretty common for people to make rude comments or judge people for spending more money on certain things than they personally would. I also feel like a lot of people like to look down on people for spending large amounts of money on material things. No, material things aren’t always forever, but the way that people like to shop and spend their money doesn’t make them shallow.

12. another thing people shouldn’t make you feel bad for: wanting to capture moments

Something I can’t stand is when people make you feel vain for taking photos of yourself, or as if you’re not living in the moment when you take photos or record what’s happening around you. While of course I think some things are not necessary to be documented, wanting to keep these memories forever is something really important to me.

13. you can never have too many jackets 

14. wash your denim as little as possible

Trust me on this one, washing denim too much will only wear it out faster. Only wash your denim once you get it dirty or you’ve worn them so much they actually need to be cleaned.

15. don’t just tell people you love them, show them

words can be easy, so showing people you mean what you say is important.

16. vintage clothing is going to be one of my favourite things for the foreseeable future

17. surround yourself with people who make you happy

Sometimes you have to associate with people you’d rather not at school or work or whatever, but you do get a choice in who you spend your time with outside of that, so you should choose wisely.

18. I was born on april fools day and I doubt the joke will ever end

19. patience is a virtue

My mums aunty always used to say this to me, and I’ve never forgotten it. I think most importantly, try to be as patient as you can with other people, it’s hard to know what’s going on beyond what you see.

20. no rain, no roses

I got this saying tattooed on me last year. It’s my preferred way of saying no pain, no gain. You can’t ever have the good without having the bad come along with it, and vice versa, and that’s something I always try to remind myself when I’m feeling low.

the start of autumn

It’s been getting colder in Canberra over the last week or so, and I’ve been welcoming it with open arms. I feel like it’s always the way, when it’s been hot for a while I crave the cold weather, but I know after a while of this weather I’ll be just wanting the heat back. Autumn is probably my favourite season, you kind of get the best of both worlds for a little before it gets close to winter, so you can play around with clothing that isn’t so much practical as it is fun.

Cropped jackets and knit are absolutely not practical in the depths of winter, but while we’ve got these days of about 17 degrees I think they’re totally acceptable. I love how they look though, so I’m trying to make the most of them before I think my pasty stomach needs the layers to keep me nice and toasty warm.

This jacket looks a lot warmer than it actually is. It’s really not very good quality but it was dirt cheap. I bought it at Jay Jays, somewhere that I normally really hate the clothing from, but I honestly love this jacket. I’ve seen puffer jackets like this floating around, and I knew I wanted one but I didn’t want one with a hood which was proving a little hard to find. I’m not sure if this jacket is still available because I bought it from an outlet store, but it was on clearance for $15 so I snatched it up. As a little note, I sized up to a size 14 (I usually wear an 8), and it does look big on me, but I usually do like my jackets oversized.

I got this top off one of my friends, who was given it by another friend, and I love it. Also, like the jacket this is a couple of sizes bigger than what I usually wear, being a large, but I really like how it fits. I think this is pretty old, but tops in similar styles to this are all over the place. I love how cropped it is, but that at the same time it’s not skin tight.

The jeans are from ASOS’ own brand and I’m a big fan. They’re called the ASOS Farleigh High Waist Slim Mom Jeans. They’re really nice denim, with the tiniest stretch to them, but very nice feeling quality. They’ve also got a button fly, and they’re very flattering around the tummy and bum, and go into a slim/straight leg, which is by far my preferred style of denim.

Here’s to dressing a little less practically while we still can.

Top: Unif x Urban Outfitters / Jeans: ASOS / Jacket: Jay Jays / Boots: Kmart / Belt: Warehouse / Necklaces: Missoma London, Gem & Co. 

cowboy boot love

I finally committed and bought myself a pair of cowboy boots. A little while ago I saw Devon Carlson (instagram @devonleecarlson) post a couple of pictures of her in a pair of cowboy boots and I realised that I needed some. I’ve been seeing some western style boots around lately and I’ve been a big fan, but I never really thought I’d want to go for a pair of full on calf high cowboy boots, but here we are.

These particular boots I’d been lusting over for a little while, but it took me a while to take the plunge and actually buy them. They weren’t insanely expensive, although I wasn’t sure about spending the money for them if I didn’t think I’d get my wear out of them. I’m still not sure if I will, but I love them a lot and I’m really hoping that I do.

I got these from River Island through ASOS, they’re real leather and so far they feel like they’re good quality for the price. I’ve only worn them once, but they didn’t feel too bad. They rubbed a little bit on one of my heels, but I kind of expect that from real leather that hasn’t been worn in yet.

The simplicity of these (compared to some of the other boots I’ve seen in similar styles) is I think what mainly drew me to this pair in particular. Quite a few others that I saw while I was looking had different coloured leather embroidered on or studs, or just other details that I just wasn’t interested in. The boots themselves are a big enough statement shoe for me without all the added extras.

The calf length is perfect for the style in my eyes, and I love the very pointed toe. They’re embroidered with black thread, which I love because it gives them a little something extra, but I don’t think it’s too much at all. Another reason I went for this pair is because they don’t have a heel. Finding boots that I love with a flat sole can prove hard for me to find. I’m about 5’11 feet tall, so I don’t really wear heels often at all, and I knew that a pair of heeled boots would absolutely not get the wear that I want them to.

I’m so excited to style these up more, but I really do love how they look with a little mini dress. This one I bought from salvos and cut to the length I wanted, but I adore how it looks paired with the boots. So before it gets too cold to rock this look, I’m definitely going to try and wear it a few more times, and with some of my other straight neck mini dresses.

Boots: River Island Knee High Western Boot

more salvos finds

About a month or two ago I made a post about some things I’d bought second hand from salvos and vinnies, and I thought today I’d write another one. Like I said in the other post, I’ve always loved vintage and second hand shopping, and lately I’ve been doing quite a lot of it so why not share?

I’ve been making an effort not to go too over the top with the length of my blog posts, and I’m actually really enjoying writing these shorter posts with only one of two outfits. So this is another little one, but I feel like I kind of prefer reading short posts lately, so it makes sense to me to create things that I would like to read.

An all black outfit is a little different for me, but I’m a fan of this one. The style of the top is one that’s a staple in my wardrobe. I think it’s so simple, but it just makes everything look effortlessly cool. I’ve seen these around all over the place so they’re not hard to find, but I love the black satin of this one.

I really love 90’s and early 2000’s style, with a little bit of an update, and I think the little spaghetti straps and tight fit with no bra kind of encapsulates that. Plus, pairing it with everything else in this outfit just makes it fit in even more with the look.

My sister actually found these pants and gave them to me, so I can’t take the credit for finding them. They’re mens work pants and I love them. They’re so unflattering, but I really don’t care. I’ve been after some cargo type pants similar to these for a little bit, but they’ve been surprisingly hard to find.

The belt is also from salvos, and it seriously screams early 2000’s style. I really like these belts, I wasn’t really looking to buy one though, but I saw this one for $4 so of course I bought it. I’m super into how this one is a brown leather instead of black, which is what a vast majority of them seem to be. I’m a big fan of belts, I love how they can just make a basic top and pants look that little bit more put together.

Top: second hand / Pants: second hand / Shoes: Rubi / Belt: second hand / Sunglasses: Cotton On